holy this made me emotional for some reason lol. I was gonna ask you about all this but I got my answer here. It's a lot to handle and I wish it could've just stayed a quiet little site w just us, but I'm also glad to have more community than I have had these past few lonely months. Things have been tough for u and you def don't need this right now, so just know as someone who can relate to both your side and all the kittens(since I'm also a teen and I get them a bit more than adults) I can and will try my best to make sure everything's going as smooth as I can make it from the sidelines. You're doing so well and making so much progress and I'm so proud of you. <3