I don’t know if this would be something weird to post, but this whole community of people have really helped me come back and feel safe again to be on the internet without any drama. I am happy everyone I have interacted with has seen me as a ‘real’ person and feel comfortable enough to be themselves around me without feeling any judgment about what they’d do. I’m a very forgiving and understanding person and don’t hold grudges unless it’s something detrimental to my mental health but regardless, I forgive easier than I’d like to think. Thank you all for being nice and caring towards me being here. It just means a lot and I really appreciate you all and hope you all take care. ♥️

I think what I have right now is good. Disregarding my IRL life for a second, what I have online is really important to me at the moment. The friends I have made on this site and everyone around me, supporting me and being nice to me means more than anything. I love interacting with my small group of friends and laughing at messages I was sent by them and them talking back to me, feeling comfortable to be themselves around me. I really am grateful for everyone I have right now, and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

As for my real life, things are going slow. I’d love to change the fact that I’m a little bit lazy with how I’m moving forward with things, but I am calm about it. I enjoy the time I spend with my boyfriend and I’m happy to just live. I still experience all the symptoms of my mental illnesses from time to time, because who doesn’t? But it’s been easier to manage since I realised I wasn’t alone. I think life, as of this moment, is better than what it was last year and I am so happy with the change and differences about myself and the people who love me no matter what relationship we had in the past.

Hi friend-friend. ❤️ Hope you’re well, ehehe.

For a favourite character of mine, I want to mention my weirdo freak Chishiya Shuntaro from Alice in Borderland. I really adore everything about him and I’m happy that AIB isn’t known too much because I gatekeep him (and Arisu) so terribly. The only people I can see Chishiya shipped with is my source & Arisu and that’s it. I refuse to share him in any capacity and I feel the exact same way with Arisu. Aah, the AIB autism has me in a chokehold.

For my wonderful husband… I think about him almost every second of every day. There isn’t a minute where me and him are apart and if we are, it’s not for long. I love him so much and want to spend my entire life with him, grow up, have a family with him. I truly adore every aspect of that stupid patient thing and I just need everyone to know I am so happily married to him forever. ♥️

Hello hello. ❤️💭 I’m honestly js gunna repeat myself here for the 100th time, but Nam-gyu from Squid Game honestly has me so incredibly crazy I can’t deal with it. I saw some leaks with him in it the other day and ever since, I’ve been clinging onto it like absolutely crazy. Pls Squid Game season 3, pls come soon.

Next one is the repeated Arisu Ryohei from Alice in Borderland. The season 3 is coming out after my birthday but I’m so incredibly hyped. I miss him so much and seeing him, even in any way possible leaks or whatever, js has me insane. I love when ppl draw him with Chishiya and my source and it just makes my day 100x better. Hehe.