many times but I either deleted them all like immediately after or they're private and nobody knows about them. thing keeping me going in life is life itself!!! it's so fun everyday and it's hard sometimes but those times I think it's for the plot! the character enrichment! author is feeding their readers! and so it's not so hard anymore when I think about it like that. but also I'm too much of a happy lovepilled joyling anyway my happy joyful whimsical attitude is keeping me going there is no resentment aka nothing but love and appreciation in my heart for everyone and everything in life