Madeline, I'm curious (was scrollin your answers) — what is the difference between patterned and pathological abuse that you mentioned? If that's ok to ask
It’s okay to ask, but it’ll be a bit difficult for me to put my thoughts into words until I actually start researching it.
For now, the simple version is :
Patterned 〜 Due to being [unknowingly/knowingly] abused, a victim may go on to internalize their abuser’s behavior and repeat it habitually. Or, they may develop abusive behavior [Guilt tripping, suicide baiting] as a result of compromised emotional wellbeing after being abused. The main aspect is that they do not hurt others out of conscious thought — simply because it may all they know.
Pathological 〜 There is an intent to hurt others through their actions, typically for the sake of pleasure or to keep themselves in power. This may also be learned, but it’s typically much harder for a pathological abuser to want to change, even if their behavior becomes self-harming as they become lonely and feign relationships solely for the sake of their ego, rather than a desire for human connection.
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It's been a while but I made a new BearBlog post ~ Here. I want to announce it to keep my analytics up ... Joking! I can only hope people care enough to actually check my diary.
See, I'm quite the imprudent and arrogant woman : I sincerely believe everyone holds a modicum of curiosity & sweet desire to get to know more of this inner soul of mine. Now, to be even more arrogant : If you ever have any thoughts regarding any of my entries, feel free ro discuss them with me! In this inbox, in my DMs, on tetratto ... I want to hear the humming symphonies of synapses crackling with thoughts about my thoughts ... = You are thinking of me! How sweet of you, random internet surfer!
do you like salt on food? i get made fun of for liking salt but i put salt on everything. my favourite foods are plain with salt... esp basmati rice w/ salt.
or are you like a hater
so tired and i still need to head to school and work on patternmaking homework 😭 forgot my headphones at home home too sigh…… QOTD: what’s your guilty pleasure show or book series or whatevs.
I don't know about guilty pleasure, but I must resort to watching Saki K. in secret because anytime anyone in the house sees it on, they go "How many times have you watched that?"
I once wrote a Saki K. fic where I used some lines directly from the show (As it was set during those episodes) but didn't check for accuracy; When I re-watched, I realized I got them all accurate to the English dub! Hehe ...
Uhm ... Seriously, what does "guilty pleasure" even mean? It's hard for me to say I feel shame while indulging in interests because I generally stay away from things I don't approve of ... Unless it's embarrassing, in this context? In which case, I'm open about anyway. I guess I couldn't watch Miraculous for a long time due to second-hand embarrassment and the animation styling making me feel weirdly dirty(?) ...
I'd like to start my family. I have no dreams of home ownership, so I hope my apartment complex's manager is kind to me. I'd like to gain a small profit off of sewing; So many ideas for clothing, yet so little skill so far.
I'd like to write journals every year to give to my children on their 18th birthdays, and fill up many photo albums.
I'd like to be an accomplished psychologist and for my work to make some dents in the field -- particularly my research on patterned abuse vs. pathological abuse. I think it'll allow those suffering to be able to forgive, yet not forget, better. As well as help those at risk of becoming patterned abusers to stop their cycles and circular thinking.
I'd like to be able to buy my mother a home, as well as financially support my friends in little ways.
back to ny tomorrow finally…after a week n a half of being away from half my homework but also not really able to do work on my computer cause not allowed to be on electronics on shabbat and beginning and end of passover…i sneak on my phone but it’s not the same….an not prepared to catch up on homework though, and be thrust into finals😭QOTD: would you be able to survive going 25 hours every week being offline? and if you could, what about 48 hours, or even 72?cause that’s the kinda life i grew up with😭
please read this immediately https://stash.4-walls.net/spring/protecting-myself/
Kat, please know that those of us who hear you, hear you.
Unfortunately, there are those that will masquerade and continue to spam your inbox. A penny of wisdom ; Perhaps make a different email regarding Spring? One you won’t have to wake up to each morning.
You are 20, to quote an humorous internet trend : You should be at the club!
Do not waste your youthful years playing babysitter.
We are thankful for your efforts, and it won’t be in vain, but there will always be those that abuse good things. It’s saddening.
We are grateful to you. ❀
What do you do for a living?
Generated ♡︎ When you’re a cute girl, people will occasionally throw money at you. In all seriousness, please commission me! I want to move out ASAP.
Dearest Lady!! Hello again, I fear it's been a while since I've been able to float in your inbox ૮◞ ◟𑁬∘˙˚ I have nothing much to say, really, I haven't been around anywhere much lately. . . I just wave happily at you now, wishing The Lady well and sweets ♡ ‧₊˚ And I leave you some lyrics as a gift!
❝ Soft pink flesh that hugs me tightly 〜 It's so pretty how you fix me every time ❞ - 🪼
New Dad ♡︎ I adore them recently! Careless like a Father, Cruel like a Mother … I hope you like Nosebleed too? ♡︎
Hello, sweet aguamala anon! I, too, have been drifting recently. I feel a sort of cultural shift. Thank you dearly for the well wishes — same goes to you! I take this message as the good omen that provided me with sour patch kids today.
have you guys ever been given a assignment that makes you question how people view you as a person
It made more sense at the time, I suppose? Though not really? Anyhow — Back in 2020, I was fused with another Angel [BUGZ / At the time, Bugsy], so our identity was very strange as I’m very cute and they’re … Very messy & chaotic, kyahaha. That said, somehow we got assigned Naib IDV. No idea why. By a very close friend at the time.
Also got assigned Dominique VNC, which makes sense, but I’ve never been assigned Jeanne even though I am her!
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